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Wheneva i think abt u...weneva i see u dancin' and singin' around wid ur dearest ones....i feel as if , u r quite comfortable widout me....but i always wanted u to sit beside me....always...... where and wen can i get u again , in this eternal timeflow??Temme.....i always wanted to make u kno how empty i felt widin myself , how much exhausted i was, widout u...but u simply took deviation weneva u saw me around didn't u??? Yeahh!!!!...u didn't even care wat i felt wen u did so...did u? Temme wat u felt , wen u ignored me...u always talked wid me as if nuthin' has happened around ...wat was all it for?

But wen u did it again and again, u kno i was feeling crapy, i lost ma balance, i got surrendered to pain, agony, anger. i wanted to xplain my feelings,nd the various paths thru' which i travelled during those days...but u kno, 'STUPIDITY WAS BORN INSIDE ME'...i always took stupid decisions...i wept, even I couldn't hear it...coz u had made me deaf already...bt i was able to hide my tears and to consolate by broken heart....coz u had taught me all those things in those earlier days...did nt u? Can u regret dat?? Temme...can u???

U always wanted me to sleep tight...didn't u? wat was it for?? i ve always asked u to come in my dreams...and u said 'yeah i will'...bt i didn't see u dere...nd still u wanted me to sleep and sleep and sleep...well...if i can see u wen i sleep, yeah!! lemme sleep forever...will u lemme do dat at least??

I simply can't think abt tomorrow, widout u....everyday, everytime, i am fightin' wid this belief to control my mind...bt i jez can't get thru', myf rnd!!! I always waited for u in full moon...u used to sit near me, u used to close my eyes wid ur soft and feathery palm, u used to hold me so tightly dat i felt it damn difficult to breathe sometimes, u used to kiss me....bt wen i opened my eyes it was darkness all around....i wanted u to drive me crazy then...infact u kno one thing....i wished to die in your arms....wen u touched me, i was burning like a volcano...my heart was fuming widin....my eyes were flooding, cold was raising thru my spinal cord, nd blood was flushin' thru ma nerves ....nd i felt as if , as if....i jez can't get enuf frm neone else in this world....nd u always made me touching the blue sky above...didn't u??

But u stopped lovin' me wen u found someone betta dan me...i don't belive it was coz of 'fear' as u told me ....it s human nature...until that time , u transform urself to a heavenly angel, dat human nature will guide u,infact u are committed to dat nature....have u eva thot y i loved u?? it was jez to give myself away.... bt it was too late , wen i found out dat , i've mistaken u for somebody else....somebody who always gave a damn....somebody who was jez like me......

My frnd , i kno u don't want me to be here nemore ....yeahhh...dat's it...bt once , only once ....will u lemme stand along wid u...inside that brite ring of deep reddish fire, at the middle of dat white ocean which was calm and clement ,facing the horizon, where we first met.... i promise u dat i won't hurt u then....i will simply forget those old days wen we discovered each oder...i can assure u , dat i will protect ur heart and soul from the mirages of my sight....wen ur hopes and ambitions scatter like dust in ur path, i ll be the full moon to guide u....the sun may blind your eyes ...bt i ll pray for the skies to shower snow on u....i always used to pray for u... dunno weder u remember or not.....now i feel its time for me to say goodbye....as per ur wish........coz I was always dere to fufill ur each and every wish........