alwaYs SwEaRed bY FuLl mOoN

I was sitting on the moon with my love...Suddenly it started raining.... Both of us were getting wet..I told her , "Catch the rain drops...the number of drops you catch is how much you Love me...and ...the drops you can't catch...is how much i Love you....."
She told me," I dunno how to catch raindrops....bt i kno how to catch tear drops....i ll make u cry and catch the number of tear drops...the number i catch is how much i love u and the number i miss is how much you hate me....."

I agreed, and......she started counting and counting.....and counting....without missing even a single drop....and it continued until the last breathe got of my body.

PeNanCe dizGuiSeD in aN `EleGy -fuElleD bY eNvy......

Wheneva i think abt u...weneva i see u dancin' and singin' around wid ur dearest ones....i feel as if , u r quite comfortable widout me....but i always wanted u to sit beside me....always...... where and wen can i get u again , in this eternal timeflow??Temme.....i always wanted to make u kno how empty i felt widin myself , how much exhausted i was, widout u...but u simply took deviation weneva u saw me around didn't u??? Yeahh!!!!...u didn't even care wat i felt wen u did so...did u? Temme wat u felt , wen u ignored me...u always talked wid me as if nuthin' has happened around ...wat was all it for?

But wen u did it again and again, u kno i was feeling crapy, i lost ma balance, i got surrendered to pain, agony, anger. i wanted to xplain my feelings,nd the various paths thru' which i travelled during those days...but u kno, 'STUPIDITY WAS BORN INSIDE ME'...i always took stupid decisions...i wept, even I couldn't hear it...coz u had made me deaf already...bt i was able to hide my tears and to consolate by broken heart....coz u had taught me all those things in those earlier days...did nt u? Can u regret dat?? Temme...can u???

U always wanted me to sleep tight...didn't u? wat was it for?? i ve always asked u to come in my dreams...and u said 'yeah i will'...bt i didn't see u dere...nd still u wanted me to sleep and sleep and sleep...well...if i can see u wen i sleep, yeah!! lemme sleep forever...will u lemme do dat at least??

I simply can't think abt tomorrow, widout u....everyday, everytime, i am fightin' wid this belief to control my mind...bt i jez can't get thru', myf rnd!!! I always waited for u in full moon...u used to sit near me, u used to close my eyes wid ur soft and feathery palm, u used to hold me so tightly dat i felt it damn difficult to breathe sometimes, u used to kiss me....bt wen i opened my eyes it was darkness all around....i wanted u to drive me crazy then...infact u kno one thing....i wished to die in your arms....wen u touched me, i was burning like a volcano...my heart was fuming widin....my eyes were flooding, cold was raising thru my spinal cord, nd blood was flushin' thru ma nerves ....nd i felt as if , as if....i jez can't get enuf frm neone else in this world....nd u always made me touching the blue sky above...didn't u??

But u stopped lovin' me wen u found someone betta dan me...i don't belive it was coz of 'fear' as u told me ....it s human nature...until that time , u transform urself to a heavenly angel, dat human nature will guide u,infact u are committed to dat nature....have u eva thot y i loved u?? it was jez to give myself away.... bt it was too late , wen i found out dat , i've mistaken u for somebody else....somebody who always gave a damn....somebody who was jez like me......

My frnd , i kno u don't want me to be here nemore ....yeahhh...dat's it...bt once , only once ....will u lemme stand along wid u...inside that brite ring of deep reddish fire, at the middle of dat white ocean which was calm and clement ,facing the horizon, where we first met.... i promise u dat i won't hurt u then....i will simply forget those old days wen we discovered each oder...i can assure u , dat i will protect ur heart and soul from the mirages of my sight....wen ur hopes and ambitions scatter like dust in ur path, i ll be the full moon to guide u....the sun may blind your eyes ...bt i ll pray for the skies to shower snow on u....i always used to pray for u... dunno weder u remember or not.....now i feel its time for me to say goodbye....as per ur wish........coz I was always dere to fufill ur each and every wish........

Entha@a ellaRum iNganE...eeNh??

Hehe..well now somethin' different. Have u ever been invisible in yahoo messenger?Yeah all of u, atleast once might have been invisible(me too included ..hehe) .... well the qyastyan is ...y so?
I 've asked the same qyastyan to many of my frnds...different sort of answers frm different sort of ppl...well all interesting...hmmm

Well bfore going to "invisible" , lemme tell u one thing , that these ppl are basically divide into two categories.They r,

1) BORN INVISIBLE...means i have nt ever seen them visible yet...bt they do talk to me ,by the way.I have nearly 64 ppl in my messenger list and i kno all of them personally (except three)...nd there is none called ONLINE FRNDS for me...well, coming to the point, yeah invis...

2) Not all time ,bt most probably, they are invis, nd sometimes they do talk to me, nd i ve asked them y u are invis?...huhh!!!

Interesting....quite interesting ....Now coming to the different categories of ppl and deir responses for ma qyastyan!!!

a} " You kno... enikk ishtamullavarodu maathram mindiyaa mathiyalllo..."
mephisto: So u mean oders don't like u??

b} "Hehe...well u kno fans nte shalyam...hehe!!!"[:-P]
mephisto:U mean usha fan or khaithan fan...huhh!!

c} "Machaa...so many creeps here nd dere..wachaa do...so me invi..hehe"
mephisto: So u think u r not a creep at all...rite..i object it man...[=;]

d}" Ohhh chettaa...me blogging...hehe!!!"
mephisto:hmmmm ok...well rite comments for mine too...[:D]

e} "Well... i am bc wid ma galfrnd!!!! so i don't want oders to disturb me "
mephisto: Yeah!! yeah!!!...jez like dat...carry on buddy[:x]


f} "Dont disturb...rite...mybest frnd is online...cyaa later...."
mephisto: sorry dats me [:D]...njan enthu parayanaaa???allelum nammude kaaryam varumbo ellarum angana thannaaa!!


g} "Some ppl jez ...u kno..othiri bad aayittulla messages...like.. u kno wat i meant!..."
mephisto:" Ohhhoo....delete cheyyanam avare okke...allel ignore cheyyanam".
"Ayyoo... athu pattilla...avark vishamaayaloo....so me invis".
mephisto: Oru kaaryam cheyyavo?? make a new id wid ur name and add all ur good frnds in it and login using dat id...solved rite?
"yeah i ll make a new id"
(mephisto: now , i do feel extremily sorry for dat advice...)


h} "ohh atho...njan vere enthenkilum KAARYANGAL cheyyumbol invis aaakum...idakku keri shalyappeduthilalloo!!"
mephisto:kolllaaam kollllam!!!!

i } "njan bc aakumbol invis aakum..."
mephisto:"Yaaa athu venam dats rite..."

j} "CHUMMMAA"
mephisto: angane chummandaa!!![>:p]

k}"athooo..me in ORKUT...2um koodi pattilla"
mephisto:okies carry on...no probs.

l}"njan angane ellarodum onnum mindaarilla...ishtamullavar undenkil mindum..aarum illenkil ishtamullavare buzz cheyyuumm...undenkil avar thirichu buzz cheyyumalloo..enagne undente puddhii??"
mephisto: ellarum angane aayal kolllavaayirunneee!!!!pinne thala purathu kaanikkandattoo...adhikam veyilum kollanda kutti...puddhi aavi aayi poyalo!!!

Well usually ...introverts and scapegraces are seemed to be invis always...nd most commonly ppl are invis , to avoid flirts, creeps, nd stupids....it s jez ma opinion abt these kind of ppl ..(njan um koodi undeeyy)


(Ithu ellarem thekkanulla blog alla...ithu vaayikkunna almost ellarum ithile oro SAMBHAVANGAL aaanu, not at all fictitious !!!...don't curse meeee!!!!....")

rEvelaTiOns oF an uNruLy pSychOpaTh-2( thE retrOspecTioN)

Aaah...how long I've been waiting for her? Shall i wait? Or , shall i go? It's all coz my fault..i shld suffer this...weneva I do weep ..I do cry....it'll all b , coz of my own follies...
So i jez can't blame neone for it, rite...so i'll keep weepin' without ne complaints...i closed my eyes in pain....

Quite unknowingly, i fell into the deep eternal trenches of thots....trenches wid unknown depths.....
It is my fate...i shld try to balance my self wid reality...i opened my eyes ....Ohhh damn briteness of the monitor....it was nearly 2.30 am....ohhh!!!!

Lord of crapes!!! help me out ...Rescue me....

Tears....aaahha....Am i crying?? ma goddd...tears again..I tried to wipe them away...bt still it's coming'...hmmm...

But ...but..it was something more thicker than tears....i got up and washed my face and looked into the mirror... into the mirror inside my soul....It was blood ....nd no tear at all ...blood was flushing out...soon i lost my sight.....fell onto the bed...i was pushed my someone else....dunno....dunno...was it her....?

Who was she ? For me, she was ....was a frnd, a true frnd...who discovered me...yeah...a sister ,yeah of course,...a lover ...hmmmm,....like a mother....hmmmm,...like ,like ...a teacher....yeah sometimes ....like some one ..some one else i always wanted to be with....like ...u kno , i wanted to b possessed to...yeah!!!

But who am I ? yeah...jez a frnd of her...yeah!!! jez a frnd ....or infact - a good frnd- ...she used to say so...bt again I was committing mistakes ...i shldnt have done that...shld i?

Why did i do that ? She was so good...a melancholic...dat's y i liked her a lott...she too used to weep over her fate.... but she was ambitious too not willn' to surrender..yet...she used to say ..'Iam a failure'...I used to consolate...Wat else I could do? Bt she was so good at heart....dat's y ...dat's y i admired her....I always enjoyed watching her playing in the rain like an innocent little child....I used to watch it secretly thru ma window...window inside ma shadow....I wanted her to be the strings of my guitar.....

She used to say ...'u kno one day, i ll marry a handsome prince,...cute nd brave....'
I used to sigh...didn't say a word How could I ?...y shld i love her ? i jez wanted her to b happy and wanted her to b free...yeah..wat else!!!
But u kno....i had no other choice...i could nt resist..i told her everythin'....everythin' wat i felt....

She said...'Well i think..it was jez an infatuation'...wat is dat ??? I looked into the dictionary and found the meaning of that word ...ohhh!!! was it dat?But it sn't dat...no it is nt.....

And she told me that hers' is a different path....well i don't have ne specific path...can i ask her, shall i too travel in ur path...if u don't mind...will u lead me ? i was always crazy like dat...

She didn't reply....ahhh she said - i dunno-....she was always like dat ...mysterious...

Weneva i looked at her eyes....i felt as if she were looking at me....weneva i smelled her exotic hair..i couldn't feel nething...bt i felt she was smelling my hair...my heart...my loneliness...she was very sensitve yet sensible...i too was ...bt ...nhhoo sensible like her....

I always stood in front of her...as a hindrance...to obscure her path...bt she didn't even notice me ....she travelled in her own path...didn't even think abt me...always....she was avoidin' me....

My heart and soul was longing...was bleeding for her love....my foolisheness was tearing her apart...away and away...her thotless words at last broke my faint heart....I ran away from emotions ...my desires...nd frm my philosophies, which i supppoesd to b true and i was dropped down was to a deserted and thorny path....where i weeped in solitude...

Wat was it that took u away frm me? Or y u wished to be so? Didn't you use to say...i miss u...did it really meant- i want to miss u...and i will miss u- ...then y didn't u say it then?

Frnd...do i have a second choice? tell me ... shld i expect to hear that fragile voice again?....that trembles my heart....dat ..dat fill my eyes wid
tears again....the moon is now hinderd by those dark clouds...it is all darkness...around me....shuld i expect the light of ur smile to guide me ?


I was loosing my weight....someone is gliding me....my god ...is it u? my only one frnd...at last u found me....

No!!!...No!!!!....it s not u.....is someone else...i have nt seen her bfore....who are u?

' I am an angel...nd i am taking u to a place where there is only one love...a love which won't set lovers apart...a love which sense ur souls...a love dat is misty...gracing and....eternal....'

I again looked into the mirror...but I couldn't see nething on it....

God'S OwN couNtries....

Place:Thampanoor Bus Stop
Time:5.30 pm ************************************************************************************
"Wo yentheru parayaanedeyy angana pvonu,deyy ninte aniyan yenthu parayanu? avante oru vevaravum illallodeyy".
"Yentho parayan...avan thallippoli aayi angane adichu polichu nadakkanu....yenneyonnum oru mind illadeyy...oru paazhu jammam!!!!"
"ninteyalle aniyaN....hmmm".

........ Two foreigners coming ......

"Gentlemen , can u plzz tell us the way to NEW THEATRE?"
"Thallee, ithenthiru parayanathu....appi....manassilaayilla...."
"NEW...NEW THEATRE.."
"Wo nammale NYUUUU....athangu paranjaaa pore..."
"Appikal oru kaaryam cheyyy...otttO pidichu poyeeen"
"Deyy athu vendaDeyyy...avammaru evarude pocket kaaliyaaaki vidum.. ningaLu nadannu poyiiin..."
"Ohhh..can u plzz tell us the way..."
"Deyy kalipppavuoo....oru kaaaryam chEyy.....nyeaaare po....nyeaaaree... appo oru junshan ehthum....athu motham chuttanam....chutttikkondirikkallu..... athinte pakuthi aaakumbo 2 vazhi kaaaanum....athil thaaazhakkodi noOOOth vittaa mathi... nyuuvinte mumpi chennu kerum..."

"Sorry...gentlemen..we didnt get u"
"Deyy...sorry ennu vechaa....thettu cheyyumbo parayanathalleedeyy?"
"wo thanna...thannna....deyy oru kaaryam cheyyam....koode chellam"
"sheri annaa...njAn parayam"
"Look sayyipp and madamma...we ...coming to the nEw theatre....ningal coming with I and thankappannan...."
"Ok..ok...we will come wid u ppl"
"annoo...kurish-aakumo"
"illadeyy...nammalu pulikal aanennu avarrku manassilaayi kaanum..."
"Appaleeeyy...yevada veedu??amarikkaaa??"
"no..we are from canada"
"Kannadayaa...deyyy yevaru Kanndakaranennu!!!"
"avidokke ippo inganyaadeyy"
"kannada.... speaking saayipp?"
"yeah english"
"Wo englishum ariyaamennu...sammathikkanam yevammareyokkee...nammal ivide aa aaaa ee eeee padikkan petta paadu namakke ariyaavoo..."
"Ithu aaara saayippinte....kettyolaaa...atho...... valla dolby case ukalumaano? oru vasham ketta nottamm...eeenh?"
"Yivide evada thaamasam....sleeping where raathri??"
"at new horizon"
"ohh sheri sheri....appikalu ivide yenthiru kaanan vannathu?"
"angane yalledaaa knappaaa ....u come here....wat scenes ??"
"Jez to celebrate our vacation"
"woo angana...avada ippo vakkashan aanennu...yevamamrudeyokke samayam..."
"dhaa anNno... sthalam ethaaraayi deyy doonda...aa unthuvandi nirthirkkana kandaa athinte munnil thanna sthalam...nammalu pottee...pinnna kaanam"
"thnx gentlemen...nice meeting u...keep tHis"
"Thalleeeeyyy!!!! yithentharu...100 rooovayaa...sthalam kaa!nchu koduthathinu..."
"vaangeeredeyy avaru kannu neranju tharanathallee...."
"Annna... ini yenthiru cheyyan??....ithu pottikkande??..."
"pinnallathee....vidaaam namukk....kuttappannante thattukada yilott!!!...."

S@Mple Inter~View_TesteD O.k....

"Well ..do you kno wat a diode is?"
"Yeah ...i do"
"Plzzz do expalin?"
"Huhh...no!!"
"Why can't you ?"
" I don't open my mouth for answering such silly questions"
"Welll......dats nice...hmmmm"
"Wat do you kno abt our company?"
" I dont kno nething..."
"hmmm...k.."
"Wat salary do u expect"?
" Atleast 5 times the salary u are supposed to give me...well wat are u supposed to give me?"
"hmmm..dat depends upon ur attitude towards ur job"
"okies... ne way i dont care!!"
" Is this ur first job?"
"Unless...."
"Well...nice...nuthing!!!"
"Wat is ur current aggregate?"
"It is all in the resume...plzz do open it and see..."
"well...k"
"Is this your first interview?"
"Wat do you feel?"
"Ohhh...nuthing..i jez asked..."
"Well...nice upto this...are ur parents employed?"
"Unless...will u give job them tooo??"
"No...i didnt mean it...k?"
"Plzz dont ask such useless questions if possible.."
"Hmmmm...ok"
"Which is ur mother tounge?"
"Sir...u kno my mother tounge??"
"Well...u didn't say...then how am i supposed to knw wat is urs?"
"Ohhh...if i say then ....u mean...u will be knowing that ?? is it so?"
"Nooo..i didn't mean so..my god"
"Okies"
"Well...wat will u do if u are not selected?"
"I will certainly beat u up"
"Ohhh is it so? well if i select u? "
"I wont beat u up... wat a silly question was dat!!!...huhhh!!!"
"Well...excellent.... nice sense of humour!!!"
"Heyy dude.. i was not joking ok??"
"Yeah ok ...i kno ...which is the suject you like the most?"
"Nuthing like dat.....i simlpy hate all..."
"Ok..."
"Well...i think, there is somethin wrong wid ur hair style?"
"Sir, i think it is coz of...hehe...dere is no hair on ur head!!!.."
"Maybe...nice reply!"
"Well....do u have nethin to ask?"
"Sir i have to meet my girlfrnd at 11.00 ...it is already 10.45...if u let me go
....."
"Ok...ok..nething more to ask"
"Merry christmas and happy new year!!! byee...cyaaa soon ...take care dude.."

rEvelaTiOns oF an uNruLy pSychOpaTh-1( thE maDrigaL)

Help me out.... to define myself...Pull me out of this perplexity... Again I am recoursing myself to you...do it at least for me...I've always been childish to you...nd unfair and iniquitous too...bt u always used to forgive me ... each and every time ...didn't you? why ? Why you still keep doing it? Why you still need me?
You are my only one frnd... a true frnd of mine....i won't regret nething...nething i've done to you and watever u did for me upto this moment ...i am not so intuitive as you are....i can't show you nemore....i am already spilled out....i know..it is ...yeah!!! it is too late..i've learned a lot many lessons from you...which i have nt ever learned or percieved ever before in my past..nor i do think i will do the same in future too... you are simply egregious my frnd....Still...Still time will once take both of us away even though both of us dont want it to happen...won't it ?
But someday..some time ...some where...we'll meet again..infact, we must meet..don't we?? Yeah it must be so...And then..i'll ask you why...why it has to be like this?? Why it all ended....or we made it to end it like that?? I dunno weder you will answer...but u must ...yeah you will coz u have got answers for everything ...i kno that...hmmm...
We always quarelled over stupid nd crapy things...stupidity....yeah it is....it was so and will be like dat...Why don't we realise each other?Why we were masqueraded? ...why couldn't we accept each other ?Why could n't we see each other ??Why we were so blind ? Why were we always on our own side ?? Why we were always entrapped in those fictitious barriers ? Why those feelings were 'nt mutual... I still don't want it to be like this.....Is there neone to answer my questions...ppl won't listen to my mumblings, coz they say ..i'm...jez....jez a trash.... a goblin...a paranoid...an obnoxiuos...nd a psychpopath.....

UnCle BooN

Long four years....I am now on the way to my hometown.The train will reach the station within half an hour.On the way, it was raining.'shit...i don't even have a cap'. The train reached the station...only two minutes there...i suddenly got out of it...and ran to the waiting room..it was nearly 1:30 am.There was no one out there. 'Shall I go now....or stay here?'
I thot of getting a taxi and went to the taxi stand...To my surprise there was nothing there...'God, where all these ppl have gone at nite?' I walked towards the road holding my briefcase in left hand and bag in the other...

'Shall I walk?' nearly two kilometres...'no... already tired...i ll wear out before reaching there'...I looked at the sky...full moon jez like day..not much stars...'hmmmm...me and moon out here!!!'
To my surprise, i saw some vehicle coming.'thank god..it is a taxi'.I waved my hand. It stopped just in front of me.

I couldn't see the driver's face...but the man sitting in front seat ...'my God..is this uncle Boon?'.I asked"Uncle Boon???"He smiled ...the same smile...the same dusty cap..nd the same broken spects.... Ohh..my goodness...
I said " uncle, i 've to go home...shall i get in?"
He said "yeah, c'mmon buddy..."
I asked " How are you?How is my frnd stanley?"

Mr Boon was my frnd Stanley's father.That way i kno him.He is also afrnd of my father.Very loving and simple.He was jez like a frnd for me....like stanley himself.

"I am fine.Stanley is in London, with his wife'.
" Uncle,Is this your taxi?"
"Yeah, the same old one...I tried to sell this one ...bt no one needs (sighs)....
"Hmmmm....well , u kno , i am here after four years...Is our town still the same? Or ne great changes?"
"No, not much..."

I looked at the taxi driver. I couldnt see his face.He had covered his face with a towel.The car was moving swift....
I asked" Is this ur driver?"
"Hahaa!!!jokin' ...no he is a frnd of mine Mr. Michael....i could n't drive for three months...So he is here to help me out...hmmm!!!Wat abt u? your business going well rite?"
"yeah ...it is jez fine"
He said " buddy it is home!!"
" Ohhh...so quick...Ok, then see you...byee... gudnite.."
"Same to u buddy!!...."

I got out of the car and took my luggages out.I waved my hand as the car passed by. He smiled. I looked at moon and winked my eye ,nd,thot' Huhh...if i have nt seen him at that time,i will be in the station this time.'thanking god and uncle once again, I walked towards my home.Opened the gate...suddenly goofy (my doggie..)came running...sniffed all over me and ran back...
When I rung the colling bell my brother came and opened the door.He said"Mom and dad are sleeping...well, how was the journey?"
I said" Well ...the journey was ok..unless i did see uncle Boon at the station, I would have been still there...hmmm".He asked"Uncle Boon...??Where did you meet him and wat did he say??"
I said "He didn't say nething..jez a few words..i came by his car.... nd he hasn't changed much...still the cool chap!!"
Brother didn't say a word.He was looking at my eyes." ne probs...y r u looking like this?"
Even though uncle Boon was a good frnd of my father, there used to have some small disputes and quarrels on silly matters , during my childhood....bt they were just like line drawn on water....so i just guessed...there may be some new ' issues' out there...hmmmm

He said " nuthing buddy...take a bath...and sleep tight...gn".
After taking a bath...i changed my clothes and fell on the bed.

In the morning ,I went to the drawing hall.There, my parents and bro seemed to be waiting for me.
"Good morning mom and dad".
"Very good morning, my dear...take coffee and let's go for a walk.."
"Yeah...why not??"Me and my dad got out walked to the park nearby...It was a misty morning,with noise of different sorts of birds all the way round...On the way he asked"Are u sure that u came here, by uncle Boon's taxi,Did he tell u nething ?"
I said "yeah...bro told u everything rite..?...it seems to be some problem out there...ne sort of misunderstandings with uncle Boon yet again?". I said this coz i found somethin wrong wid his behaviour...

Then my father said,"Uncle Boon died three months before...He was hit down by his own taxi accidently , which was driven by one of his close frnds, Michael...."

When you say....

When you say, "You are mine!!!" ....it is simply selfishness....

When you say, "I am your's !!!"... it is simlpy surrendering....
And...

When you say, " I love you!!!!"....it is stupendous STUPIDITY...coz....

InCoGnItO`

She turned back...he was just behind her...a few steps behind..with a seducing smile on his face...she increased her pace ..somehow, reached home got into her room and looked out thru' the window....it was abt to rain.

She sighed...."why he is after ME?".For her, this was d first experience....no other boys in her class...no..not even in her school have n't ever looked at her face..coz it was damn horrible ,wid white colored burns ,which came as a result of an accident a few years before...nd she was too lean and dark...nd even girls also feared to talk to her...but she was so good at heart...nobody did try to understand her... nd always alone...she was pretty gud at studies too....

And all on a sudden he came...a boy frm London....Chris...joined the same school,in her class...he was so handsome, dat u jez can't take ur eye from him ...He had got blond hair and blue eyes...all d girls in dat class secretly admired him....

Now it happened....he fell in love..nd with that girl, having the scariest face in that school.....bt she....she jez can,t imagine such a thing to happen.... One day after lunch he came to her and said..."Well ... I 've got somethin' to say"...she said"hmmmm..k wat's it?"..."eerrhh....it's actually...i..."he couldn't complete..she could see his yellowish white face turnig red and he started sweating...she said" hmmm....??" .." Well...i jez wanna say.... i love u" ...he gave a long gasp after saying dat....then smiled and ran out of the class...All oder girls in the class looked at her in envy ....."huhhh!!!!"

There it started....she too started loving him...Now she became the centre of attraction in the class..and she also felt proud abt herself....he was so caring and loving ...nd she was possessive too...nd was urging for love..which she didn't get frm newhere before.

One fine day in the afternoon he said "shall we go for a walk?".She said" Ohh..no ,it may rain"..."ahhaa..Common..we shall walk in the rain...Don't worry..I ll b e with u". On the way she asked "Where are we suppposed to go now"? " To the riverside...We shall watch the beautiful river flowing and watch the sunset frm dere....are u afraid??" ...she said"no..wat for?"

He sat on the grassy ground.The river was flowing in a slow pace. And she too sat beside him.A mild breeze moved by passing them.She moved a bit closer and placed her head on his shoulders.And asked" can i ask u something?" He said " yeah..why not?"...."why did u choose a girl like me?" ..." ohhh..i simply love u..nd i need u dats all"..he continued" and i have nt ever seen a charming and cute girl like u"...she was feeling weightlessness..."is it a dream ??" he pinched on her hand and said"wat do u feel now? " she smiled...

And then he placed her head on his lap.She didn't say a word.She was looking at him...It was abt to rain...The sun himself got obscured behind the dark clouds.He leaned a bit towards front and raised her head a bit, and kissed her on her lips ...she didn't resist ..she enjoyed it as if she too was longing for it.He took a piece of cloth from his pocket and asked her to smell it...she said" Ohh!!!! it is smellimg so sweet..Wat is it?"..."hmmm...don't u kno ? it is the smell of desire...haven't u ever smelt it?"

Suddenly ...she heard the sound of thunder..no!!..no...it was from her heart ...she was losing her conscious...and it started raining slowly....A chameleon, which sat on the branch of a tree nearby ,staring at them, slowly....very slowly, changed its color. Soon it began raining heavily...damn heavily!!...

Hours went by...it was evening ..the sun was abt to set...she woke up frm sleep...he was looking at her...she suddenly searched for her clothes...and put them on ...she was crying like a kid ...bt he was indifferent....still the same charming smile on his face..."why ...why did u do this to me?? was it for this...u loved me?? i' m spoiled nd i 've lost ...." ...he didn't answer.She cried out"Anwer me ..u cheat!!!"

He raised his head and said" Ohhh...i 've told u ,dat i love u and i need u...yeah it is rite ..i won't regert...bt i didn't find nething wrong in it...i jez needed someone and some space to fulfill my fuming desires...and also, i 've slept with both white and black girls wen i was in london, nd u....u are both rite?? I found somethin different in u......nd really...u were more erotic than d oders..and so i chose u ..dats all!!!!...nd budyy, u r simply awesome nd i really enjoye...." he could not complete it .

Her right palm smashed on his face with immense velocity...it turned red , the same redness she saw on his face,wen he told her"i lov.....".Without wasting a second he walked back.
....She didn't even turn back...d sun had already set...still..still...some red rays coming frm behind the distant mountains..red....rays of desire, rays of sensuality,rays of devotion ,rays of betrayel ,rays of.... a liaison.


Suddenly a lightning flashed...nd followed by it a roaring thunder....she woke up frm thoughts....it was half past 6.00...nd was raining heavily outside... She looked into the mirror.... and cursed her fate...wat else she can do?.... Then took a new razor frm her shelf ...while removing its cover, she started counting 10, 9 , 8....hmmm... 7 months left.....