Sloven ironies

Endless nites did I stay, widout a ray of hope
Nd lonely did i walk in those moonlit shores
Wid fuming desires nd sensual delights
Nd shackles of silence blew a gusty breeze...

In front of those cutest eyes, while losing my senses
Nd at the end of dat emptiness, which spread a fragrance
Of her violet blanket, which slowly covered me!
Nd while listening to her heartbeat, there spread a smell of desire...

Dark nd cloudy storms surrounded my way
Nd I was losing even the newest dawns... forever...
In the chill of dat winter morning, she flew away
Piercing the deepest recess of my soul...forever

In-excusable

Wid patience did I wait,
Til d shade fell on ma enraged soul,
But fortune proved unkind,
With d (old) sweetheart of mine.

I'm nt saying I'll b sorry (again)
For all d things that I made u cry
I can't say I'll always do everythng u want me to do,
Nd I can't assure u I'll b true always....


But experience made me know
That you heart ws full of woe,
Coz dat true love is absent from me now
Neither did I kno (discovered) wat it is....

Farewell, my joy nd heart,
Since u nd I must part,coz
U are the fairest one I hd eva seen
Nd I never fetch up a design.....

To alter ma worst mind.

But I'm obliged to remain for u nd
In tears, will I spend the whole night.

When ur silence speaks...

Nuthin' much....

One of my worst weakness is dat, i do luv some ppl blindly and do care dem a lot....

And d worst of all d weaknesses is dat i do expect d same frm dem too!!!

And d key part is dat, wen i won't get d same, wen i'm ignored, or wen dey dun consider me
not even as a final OPTION( coz usually i am ) , it hurts, bleeds.....

And if i am ignored by someone(yea...it is d only one person), i do luv so deeply....so warmly....dear, i franlky feel my soul is charred.....

(Ur silence vehemently shamed me....)

Recognise me, hereafter only as a vague sinking memory, as someone who got mesmerized and dissolved in ur tears......

Some windows shud neva b ....

Well...now it is 1.10 am .I am abt to sleep. But lemme put dis down.

Secrets...U kno? Yea, every one knos naa...All of u will b keeping at least one secret wid u...won't u?Lolsss...dun say no!!!!

Hehe....A few minutes ago me talked wid an old skool frnd of mine. And he was talking abt his affair wid a gal. I kno him for d past 15 years. And for my surprise wen i asked d name of dat gal, he said," Sorry man, I jez can't....coz I 've promised her not to tell her name to neone...."

'Wowowoow!!!!!!'

I was a bit agitated wid his reply,coz i dint expect him to reply like dat, nd he was able to read my mind. He told me dat , it is not coz he dun trust me. He knos me well , nd even if he had told me her name, he is damn sure dati wud have kept it as secret....yet!!!

Yea...wen i thot further abt it , I found dat he was right.It is pretty hard to keep secrets.U need to have a well matured mind for dat. Secrets shud b always buried in dark. Wateva it mabbe if u have given a word to someone....it shud b kept at ne cost .

I do keep a lot of secrets, coz i believe ppl do trust me....bt to b frank, i'm not always worthy enuf frnds. I have broken many promises , coz frm my past experience , it shows dat , to gain someone, something, we have to loose someone on d oder war around.....

Yea, now i do admire dat frnd of mine for his_____ ....i dunno wat it is....yea i think it is d apt word is sincerity....which is missing in everyone nowadays...nd abt 20 years frm now, d word sincerity won't b in dictionary for sure....

Ok lemme wind dis up wid 2 famous [:P] sayings.....

1)Some windows shud neva be opened[Easy 2 say,hard to put into work!!]....
2)Promises are made to b broken (sometimes to bend)....


..................................................................................... mephisto`- (1986- )